When I first started exercising and losing weight I wanted to be skinny. I wanted to be able to shop in any store I wanted, pick a pair of jeans off the rack and just wear them. I hated always having to go to the "big girl" store where back then it was always "floral" print clothing (a lot has changed since 2000 and earlier - the clothing selection is MUCH better). But yeah...I just wanted to be skinny. I didn't want to be "big". That was my goal - get thin/skinny and shop wherever I want.
Jump ahead to today and my answer is much different. I want to be STRONG. I want to run 5k/10k and not have to stop and gasp for air. I want to carry Jonathan in one arm and haul 4-5 (or more) grocery bags from the van into the house with ease (I can already do this by the way ;)). I want to LIVE a life where I feel healthy, energized, vibrant and ready to take on the world. I want to feel badass! I want to feel like if some jerk tried to take me down that they wouldn't stand a chance. I never want to feel weak. Weight lifting gives me that feeling - it's my rush, my relief after a stressful day at work. Yeah there's days when I get home and feel like "Meh, I just want to put my pajamas on." Who doesn't have those days? Sometimes I let them happen but often I make myself commit at least 10 minutes and if I still feel the same way I can stop. What typically happens is once I get going, I KEEP going.
Getting stronger every day and I love it :)