I started my weight loss journey after the birth of my second child Alexander in May of 2005. Before my c-section I knew I wanted to make a commitment to losing weight and being healthier for my children. It was something I always "wanted" to do but could never seem to win at.
I was overweight before I had my children (anywhere from 220-240 lbs). At my heaviest I was 265.5 lbs. This didn’t look good on my small 5′4″ frame. I knew a change had to be made. I was tired of hating the way I looked and feeling miserable. I couldn't shop for nice clothes. I got winded walking up a simple flight of stairs. I never wanted to go out and do fun things because I was embarrassed about the way I looked. I would quietly stay in the house with my family, eat, watch tv, play games and use the computer. That's the life I knew and the life I grew accustomed to. I LOVE my family - but I secretly hated myself inside. Anytime I had to meet new people I would look down not wanting to make eye contact. I was the shy one. I suffered from being incredibly shy and always felt like people judged me before they even knew me. It was incredibly hard feeling this negatively about myself. I would try to diet over and over again in a struggle to lose weight. I could lose 8-10 lbs in the beginning but eventually always put it back on because I had starved myself or became bored with the food. Deprivation would kick in, along with boredom and stress, and I would be back to my unhealthy eating habits in the comfort of home at a heavier weight than when I started. It was a vicious cycle. Each time I failed, I got more and moredepressed and continued to think less of myself. "Why can't you do this Kimmy? Why are you such a failure?" I constantly blamed myself inside and with each blame ate more and more. It was HELL.
During my second pregnancy I decided enough was enough. If I was going to keep up with *2* children I needed to make a change and FAST. I wanted to set a good example for my children and be a healthy, active mom. My kids deserved the best and I finally realized *I* deserved the best too.
Step 1 involved learning HOW to eat properly. I was pregnant - I obviously couldn't go on a diet and I couldn't workout except for walking. I decided to search and review everything I could find online so I could be ready after the birth of my son.
I had my C-section on May 9th, 2005 (the day after Mother's Day). My son Alexander was 7 lbs, 12 ozs and I fell in love with him immediately. I remembered the promise I made to myself (and him while I was carrying him) that I would eat healthy and get myself in shape once and for all. My day 1 began the minute he was born! The clean eating started in the hospital where I wrote everything down in my scribbler. When we got home I started tracking calories online and learned all about Fat/Protein/Carbs.
I was completely skeptical when my nutrition tracking software told me I wasn't eating enough. "Yeah right!!!" but I decided to put skepticism aside and try something new. "What else do I have to lose?" I ate the recommended calorie intake for my size (which was roughly 1800 calories at the time) and the weight started falling off. I couldn't believe it! I was eating more and losing weight. I was beyond happy and my relationship with food has never been the same!
Recovery from my c-section took 6 weeks but I managed to lose 25 lbs walking and monitoring my calorie intake every day. This was from May 9th - July 1st, 2005. My exercising involved walking around my little block in Montague - which took me roughly 20 minutes. It was less than half a km but a real challenge for me. I did this faithfully with my family each day, along with my calorie tracking and the weight continued to come off.
During my 6 week checkup my doctor gave me the okay to exercise - I couldn't wait! I debated joining Curves but it was really expensive compared to our local gym and didn't have a pool. I HATED the thoughts of working out in a co-ed gym. I thought people would stare or laugh at me (guys in particular). I had joined the gym years before but never used my membership. I struggled with an internal battle of whether this would just be another "waste of my money". I again remembered my commitment though and decided to join the gym. I had lost 25 lbs on my own and wanted to continue seeing success. I was 240 lbs and desperately wanted to get back to at least 220 (my old high school weight).
I met with Wendy Chappelle on July 2nd, 2005. I was extremely nervous and shy. I remember thinking to myself "What this fit woman must be thinking of me looking to join the gym. Does she think I will fail? Does she think I'm lazy? Are other people looking at me? OMG I want to RUN - I don't belong here!" Yes - I really had *ALL* those thoughts running through my head all at once. I kept going though and walked up to the desk to meet Wendy, who was extremely kind. I remember her first question to me was "What can I do for you?" I remember sitting there stunned for a few seconds feeling like I should blurt out "Isn't it obvious?? I'm FAT and need to lose weight?" I didn't though. Wendy was extremely kind and made me feel comfortable. There were no pre-judgments on why I was there. She genuinely wanted to help me out. I explained I had lost 25 lbs on my own and was looking to start a weight/cardio routine. I started off with a simple weight lifting routine done 3 times a week, every second day. One exercise per muscle group with 3 sets of 12. I did 20 minutes of cardio a day and religiously tracked every calorie I put in my mouth. The weight kept coming off and with each loss I was determined to keep going!
I remember the first day after my weight training routine I hurt like hell. "There's no way I can do that again!" Day 2 was my rest, but I was still hurting by Day 3. "I don't think I should go. This doesn't seem right." Everything I read online assured me that the discomfort was normal - my body simply wasn't used to being challenged with weights. I did my Day 3 and surprisingly enough - felt fantastic! The recovery period got easier with each workout. The more I got into my routine the better I felt. I *LOVED* working out with weights and immediately got hooked. The inches started falling off and I knew there was no turning back.
It took me a year to reach 139 lbs. A lot of hard work, sweat and tears (of joy) but I am here! People that meet me today call me tiny and don’t believe I used to be overweight until I break out the pictures. I love it.
I still track my calories - it’s something I will probably do for the rest of my life. I don’t find it a hassle - I consider it a part of my daily routine. It has worked very well for me so far.
I have maintained my weight loss for 4 years now and feel fantastic! Since losing the weight I’ve had a number of people approach me with questions on how I did it, what to eat, etc. I decided to take my new found lifestyle a step further and became a certified Personal Trainer through CanFit Pro in August of 2009. My company Shape Your Weigh was registered in September. My goal is to reach and help as many people as I can that are scared to join a gym and workout. I want you to know that it _CAN_ be done regardless of where you are right now. It’s a lot of work but worth every step along the way!! I have been there. I know how scary it is and how you feel. Please know and believe that you can do it! If I can do it – ANYONE – can! I will never go back to the way I was. If you want to take the path to a healthier lifestyle then contact me. I can show you the weigh!